Sunday, July 22, 2012

Who am I ? (part 10) Personal account and paranormal

I am writing a personal account of some of the my experiences as well as others to create the base for the unified explanation in scientific terms, which I shall start from the next blog.

The intellectual brain was teeming with unanswered questions when I had the spiritual experience / the spontaneous kundalini awakening in Feb '04 (description in part 3). Strange things were happening inside my body all the time as I felt snake-like movement of energy flowing upwards from the base of the spine and hitting my head releasing a white light in the brain, again and again every minute. Sometimes, the movement seemed like a ravenous hungry snake moving at extreme pace around the spine, while most times it was a languid, slow paced movement.

I had never experienced anything like this in the past 44 years. Had I had gone crazy and was I imagining things? What is this incessant movement that I could not ignore? Fortunately, not coming from a religious background and being an atheist or agnostic at best - I did not think it as a gift of God, but tried to search for answers. Also, I had a HUGE ego, feeling that I was very smart, intelligent and superior and therefore determined to find out the truth myself by reading. So, I started reading books after books and websites after websites on kundalini as soon as I found out what it was (courtesy of a deeply knowledgeable friend). While it was clear that what was happening to me was a spontaneous kundalini awakening, I could not identify with most of the descriptions of the awakening that I read which bordered on the outrageous or on syrupy outpourings of romantic seekers, or worse, by commercially inclined organizations and individuals. Gopi Krishan, a rigid, science-based seeker wrote about his full-fledged kundalini awakening experiences in a language and tone that appealed to me, and convinced me that his experience was genuine and similar to mine. He almost lost his life and sanity and reading the excellent account of his struggle to cope scared me. Other statements that I read like "Once kundalini breaks through the boundaries, it has broken the house and cannot go back to sleep in its house." or "As many as a third of the people who have a spontaneous kundalini awakening go mad or dead as the increased electrical energy could fuse the nerves of the brain" kept me worried.

But, I was feeling absolutely alright and extremely oxygenated, wanting less sleep and feeling energised. I gloated at "my" strength, till around the fifteenth day of the awakening. Then I started feeling the heat within my body. Every day, my body was increasing in heat, till I felt that I was burning within. My eyes were bloodshot and packs of ice on my head and body was not making an iota of a difference. I was feeling afraid and used to go to sleep feeling that I would wake up "mad or dead".

By this time, I started going into automatic meditation bouts, some of them lasting more than 5 to 7 hours. My sleep had reduced to just 2 to 3 hours as I sat on my bed lost in deep trance. It was during these meditational trances that I started understanding the process happening within. Questions which had never ever occurred to me, started getting resolved. I was able to understand who I was, how existence started and what is its purpose, what is my role in it and various similar issues, with striking clarity. Subsequent reading and thinking has not been able to change even a comma from the original understanding.

Then one day, while my wife Minal was applying ice on my body, I could see into the blockages in her arms (don't have the right words to describe this). She had an accident some years back and her arm bone(humerus) had got crushed and there was a metal strip inserted, and she could not do certain movements of her hands due to that. Being able to suddenly see the blockage in her arm, I put my hands on the spot and in 15 minutes, her arm's blockage disappeared and she was able to move her hands even in the directions which she could not, earlier.

So, I had hit upon a wonderful win-win solution. The excess energy in my body which was creating the heat could be used to heal. So, my mother and wife talked to a few people around the area and every evening when I came home from office, I would have people with various ailments waiting at home for laying of hands and getting healed. Having no understanding of the human body nor of any medical knowledge - I just could feel the blocked parts of the patient and energised it by laying my hand and many claimed that they got healed due to this. This went on for a few months, but the heat refused to leave me. Understanding that it was due to an excess of energy, I stopped food for some days to reduce intake of energy, but to no avail. So, what was happening?

Meanwhile, a friend's husband had a heart stroke and as oxygen did not reach his brain for a few minutes, he was in a critical situation in Breach Candy Hospital. He was on ventilation and doctors had given up on his survival. On the friend's request, I lay my hands on his head and the next day's EEG (Electroencephalography: electrical activity along the scalp produced by the firing of neurons within the brain) report showed some activity which surprised the doctor, including Dr Bhattacharya (one of India's leading heart surgeon) and then every day I would visit the hospital and pass on energy and see substantial improvement in his state. Unfortunately, I stopped the process as his body which was needing lots of energy was draining me completely. He never came back to normal and after around a year and half, he died.

Another friend who knew about all this, informed me about a young girl who had drowned in a swimming pool and due to lack of oxygen was on the verge of dying. I pushed energy into her brain by laying of hands for many days and she started recovering. She is normal now. I had a few similar episodes, but each of these energy transfers were draining me completely.

When returning by train from Bangalore once, a co-passenger described an accident that had happened to a fellow devotee of Sathya Sai Baba, who was admitted in Nanavati Hospital in a bad shape. As she was saying that, I suddenly went into a trance and could identify with the patient and immediately told the fellow passenger about the place and intensity of the wound. On calling up the relative of the patient from the train, it was verified that my observation was exact. That was my first experience of "parkayapravesh" or "entering someone else's body". After that, I could routinely enter bodies of people, identify the weak spots and heal them through energy transfers, regardless of the distance.

A year back, a friend, Subhash Harlalka, told me of a young boy of around 25 near Jhansi, who could read your mind and give you the answers before you ask. So, when he came to Mumbai at Subhash's house, me and many others went to meet him. He had many small papers and he would ask one of us to come and ask him questions. And as we walked towards him, he wrote down the question that we planned to ask on the small paper and unerringly it was correct. Actually, when he asked the next participant to ask the next question, me and another old lady stood up, simultaneously. As he wrote down the question - I sat down to allow the old lady to ask. The question that he had written was exactly what the old lady asked. So, he not only knew the question beforehand but also that I was going to sit down and allow the lady to ask.

A couple of months back a renowned Guru had come to a friend's house and when I went to meet him, he produced a two-faced rudraksh (a kind of seed) and a small pyramid of Sphatik ( a semi precious stone) out of thin air and gave it to us. I used to go to the house of a Sathya Sai devotee in Vile Parle East, where routinely, utensils full of ash would fall from the deity's picture. A cousin of my sister is another devotee of Sathya Sai Baba and I saw that ash, vernillion and small statues (from among the collected ash) would routinely come out of the framed pictures.

Uri Geller is one of the most well-known "psychics" who has publicly demonstrated feats of psychokinesis (power of mind to influence physical pieces) : spoon and key bending have become almost synonymous with Geller's name. Geller has shown that he can manifest the effects over great distances and in multiple locations. On a British radio show in 1973, after demonstrating key bending to the astonishment of the host, Geller invited the listening audience to participate. Just minutes later, phone calls began pouring into the radio station from listeners all over the UK reporting that knives, forks, spoons, keys and nails began to bend and twist spontaneously. Watches and clocks that had not run in years began to work.

You and me could give hundreds of instances of these paranormal and parapsychological events:

Telepathy : the transfer of information on thoughts or feelings between individuals by means other than the five senses.

Materialization and dematerialization: Creating something out of nothing and vice versa

Psychic reading: Astrology, Aura reading, Distant readings, Palmistry, Tarot Card, Numerology etc.

Channelling: Communication with a spirit, with the dead

Paranormal experiences: Out-of-body experiences, Near-death experiences, encountering ghosts, fairies and spirits etc.

Extrasensory perception (ESP): reception of information not gained through the recognized physical senses but sensed with the mind like Clairvoyance (seeing beyond the five senses), clairaudience (hearing beyond the five senses), Clairsentience (feeling), Clairalience (smelling), Claircognizance (knowing), Clairgustance (tasting) etc.

Are these a con-game or imaginations of a feverish mind? Earlier I would have dismissed these stories as nonsense and maybe mocked the practitioners, but after experiencing many of these occurrences and getting answers , I accept and understand. While there may be hundreds of charlatans and fakes, there is a science and logic behind all.

I do not believe in miracles. Just the fact that we know how we are living, how women give birth, how each of our cells are programmed to behave in a certain manner, how the sun comes up at the exact destined time and how the universe perform means that the above paranormal are not miracles, but our limitations of understanding.

Is there a single theory which could explain ? Let me start from the next blog to explain the thread which ties the entire existence in a unified whole. Please find an excerpt from the "Autobiography of a Yogi" by Pramahansa Yogi, where he describes his encounter with Sir Jagdish Chandra Bose, India's greatest scientist son.

Sir Bose "In the pursuit of my investigations I was unconsciously led into the border region of physics and physiology. To my amazement, I found boundary lines vanishing, and points of contact emerging, between the realms of the living and the non-living. Inorganic matter was perceived as anything but inert; it was athrill under the action of multitudinous forces.


"A universal reaction seemed to bring metal, plant and animal under a common law. They all exhibited essentially the same phenomena of fatigue and depression, with possibilities of recovery and of exaltation, as well as the permanent irresponsiveness associated with death


"I will attach the crescograph to this fern; the magnification is tremendous. If a snail's crawl were enlarged in the same proportion, the creature would appear to be travelling like an express train!"


My gaze was fixed eagerly on the screen which reflected the magnified fern-shadow. Minute life-movements were now clearly perceptible; the plant was growing very slowly before my fascinated eyes. The scientist touched the tip of the fern with a small metal bar. The developing pantomime came to an abrupt halt, resuming the eloquent rhythms as soon as the rod was withdrawn.


"You saw how any slight outside interference is detrimental to the sensitive tissues," Bose remarked. "Watch; I will now administer chloroform, and then give an antidote."


The effect of the chloroform discontinued all growth; the antidote was revivifying. The evolutionary gestures on the screen held me more raptly than a "movie" plot. My companion (here in the role of villain) thrust a sharp instrument through a part of the fern; pain was indicated by spasmodic flutters. When he passed a razor partially through the stem, the shadow was violently agitated, then stilled itself with the final punctuation of death.


"By first chloroforming a huge tree, I achieved a successful transplantation. Usually, such monarchs of the forest die very quickly after being moved." Jagadish smiled happily as he recounted the life-saving manoeuvre. "Graphs of my delicate apparatus have proved that trees possess a circulatory system; their sap movements correspond to the blood pressure of animal bodies. The ascent of sap is not explicable on the mechanical grounds ordinarily advanced, such as capillary attraction. The phenomenon has been solved through the crescograph as the activity of living cells. Peristaltic waves issue from a cylindrical tube which extends down a tree and serves as an actual heart! The more deeply we perceive, the more striking becomes the evidence that a uniform plan links every form in manifold nature."


The great scientist pointed to another Bose instrument.


"I will show you experiments on a piece of tin. The life-force in metals responds adversely or beneficially to stimuli. Ink markings will register the various reactions."


Deeply engrossed, I watched the graph which recorded the characteristic waves of atomic structure. When the professor applied chloroform to the tin, the vibratory writings stopped. They recommenced as the metal slowly regained its normal state. My companion dispensed a poisonous chemical. Simultaneous with the quivering end of the tin, the needle dramatically wrote on the chart a death-notice.


"Bose instruments have demonstrated that metals, such as the steel used in scissors and machinery, are subject to fatigue, and regain efficiency by periodic rest. The life-pulse in metals is seriously harmed or even extinguished through the application of electric currents or heavy pressure."

4 comments:

  1. hey mayank
    nice post.
    try reading AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF A YOGI - BY SRI PARAMAHANSA YOGANANDA.
    will answer all your questions to life .
    blessings from new york / naini

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  2. @naini - i have just quoted the last few paragraphs from the autobiography of yogi. It has helped me a lot in my journey.

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  3. wonderful. most enlightening.

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  4. i am re-reading it to understand it in depth.

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